Introduction

Dear Reader,

For whatever reason you are reading this I thank you. I created this blog in hopes of finding myself. I am a mother and I am a wife, for most that seems to be the only title they claim. Though I love being mommy and wife, that is not all that I am. I am a woman. I am smart. I am Khrystina.

I have four beautiful children, two boys, two girls, I also have a very special daughter who passed away due to a late miscarriage. She is a big reason I needed to move on to a personal blog. I'm sure I will talk about her a lot now that I feel safe to be who I am. My husband and I are recently married but have been together for a long time, marriage just wasn't important, one day on his lunch break, we decided to go to the court house. Yes, we are on a whim type of folk.

I am an atheist. That means, I am a person who denies the existence of any Gods. I'm a good atheist though. Hardly judgmental when it come to differences of opinions. I believe in equality for all and freedom of choice.

On to the reasoning behind why I decided to start a blog. I needed a safe haven for me, my thoughts and the words that I write. I needed to find myself within all the muck that has overtaken me recently. Mature and grow in a new direction. Taking the positive route this time.

My most recent conflicts have been amongst some of the worst I have faced. My newest addition was born early and spent some time in the NICU, shortly thereafter I ran into some serious financial issues and then after that I was practically throw to the wolves by some of the most respected and loved people in my life. A part of me from the beginning to the end of that, I lost pieces of me that will never be recovered. However, I think above it all, I've changed in a manner that is admirable. Perhaps I'm a bit less trusting of people but I have learned that words are just that words. What I know about myself is about all that really matters anymore.

This blog is my ways of growing up in a sense. Leaving behind what isn't important and finding my sanity again. My place of belonging and relocating the peace I lost some time back caused by people who only done harm against me. People I thought were there to help me rise. Turns out, the only person I can honestly trust is myself. Learning that has opened my eyes to so many possibilities and knowledge. Knowledge I hope to showcase here. A non-hidden Khrystina blog so to say.

I hope for whatever reason you are here. You find something to take out with you. I adore people who can relate with me and I even more so adore when someone can find comfort from my own words. I'm a giver to the fullest and though I'd write this blog for myself as a release, I also give it to you, the reader to take with you.

Please continue on reading about my newest journey in growing up and becoming who I want to become. Being who I am without hiding.

Sincerely,
Khrystina